The void

A strange thing happened as I read the story of Tito Ortiz and Jenna Jameson.

Just a quick catch-up. Early this week, Ortiz was arrested on suspicion of domestic violence against his girlfriend (whom he lives with), the ex-porn star. Ortiz claims he never hit Jameson and said she is addicted to the pain medication Oxycontin.

I didn't stop to think about whether Ortiz is guilty, or if they will stay together, or any of that crap that's none of my business. Instead, I thought about the drug addiction, and what it means for Jenna.

People turn to drugs to fill a void in their life. It may be a feeling of non-acceptance, or lack of love, or wishing you were someone or something else. JJ hasn't lived the cleanest life, but none of us have. And now that she's considered old in her line of work (along with other demons she faced growing up), the pain could be catching up with her.

If it were 10 years ago, I'd have coldly written her off as a well-paid prostitute. But now I realize that she's still a child of God. That's not an excuse for her lifestyle choice in any way (again, I ain't exactly first prize), but it's a reason to pray that she heals rather than give a quick "as ye sow, so shall ye reap" judgment.